Sunday, May 23, 2004

Hmmm, what a fulfilling week it had been for me. Yes, I’m sure u know I’m referring to my breakdancing. Its so nice to improve. Finally got my rollback elbow and my banana. Feel kinda more complete with all this moves, but rather scared that I will lose them, so I guess I better practice more. Got this bruise on my elbow and aching neck from the rollback elbow. But no pain no gain. Later going to break again. Last sat session was one of the best I ever had. I felt more power in my windmills, pretty sure I’m going to get them soon already. Headspins tapping more shiok too. So are my flare, think hasrul is pretty rte, he says that the body is not used to the flares with straight legs, mahmud ask me to learn with bent legs first, but I think I better not change coz now I starting to be able to hang the rte leg when swinging out. YEAH, haha.

Yesterday I had nothing to do, so I decided to take my bike’s fairings (the side covers) out to do some waxing and cleaning. First time trying to take them out. Had a rather hard time figuring how to take them out, had some twenty screws to take out, when they were finally out, I did some polishing and voila~. Bright, shiny and smooth. I brought some stickers to paste on my bike too. But alas it just had to rain this morning. So it’s a lil dirty again, but never mind, the dirt won affect the waxing that I have done, but kinda lazy to clean it again lo. Never mind, kazumi™, I will clean u tml, or maybe the day after tml…. What abt the day after the day after tml. Hee. Forgive me la, k. I won neglect you, don worry. With you, I feel more control over my life. Cherish you, girl.

This week’s going to be another fun week I think. Wed got this concert by my primary school fren, azrulnizam. He happens to be in police national service and is working one floor under me, so I think fate plays wonders at times. He used to be my best fren in primary school. I know its kinda odd, coz he’s a malay, but somehow we just clicked. Theres so many things that are still in my memories even after so many years. We did projects together, we copied homework in the toilet together, lol. I helped him shift house together. We played catching under his block. So much joy that it actually bring tears missing those times. I wish him all the best for the concert though. Thursday will be a bbq at east coast, think I wan to try to do some flips. With some flips, den I will be even more complete, wish me luck lo. I want to be the best in the business!!! Heh.

My ex msged me the other night. Wonder if she’s ok. Its been like one year since she msged me. So its kinda odd that she would sms me in the middle of the night. Zzz, I just hope everything will be fine for you, dear girl. Stay healthy for your own sake, your parents’ sake or ron’s sake, if not for my sake k. so fast, time and tide wait for no man. One and a half years already. Already forgot your house number, your chinese name, almost forgot your hp no. till u sms me. Forgot how tall u stand beside me. Forgot your smile and your laughter. Forgot the size of your palm resting in mine. Forgot the smell of your hair and the sound of your breathing. Forgot how u first kissed me. Forgot how u hugged me. Forgot how u once loved me.

Friends? I will try, but first let me forget how I once loved you and how u once left me.

I wished that u will be happy on my birthday last year. I asked my late grandfather whether you were happy when I last went to pay respect to him. He kept quiet, not knowing to me silence meant uncertainty. I prayed to gods when I was in the temple and church to bless you with happiness, no mattering that I lost my belief in them when u left without looking back. I just prayed, hoping that with sincerity, I will move them. Just last night, I childishly wished upon a star, the brightest one above me, for it to shine brightly each time you look at the stars hoping it will cheer you up and on.

If you are still not happy, I give up, knowing that upon hearing you cry and seeing your tears, I will start praying again. Stay strong and happy k.

Lastly, Hip hop you don stop – peace \/


gilbert at 9:13 PM [comment]

{I hear voices, voices only half as humane as mine..}